2.12.2024 Self-Medicating

1020 AM. Still feeling the effects of yesterday’s DXM. This experience, confronting my inner monster, has been painful but I feel like I confronted myself, my dragon, and the experiences and lessons I learned along the way are worth more than any gold.

Realizing sometimes secrets are a good thing. I found a letter I wrote to my mom when I was 11 or so. Reading it from a different perspective, now that I’m a mother too, is so profound. We’re all doing the best we can with what we have. We all want the same thing—stability, and a purpose. There’s no reason to resurrect this again. Instead, onward and upward.

I can’t wait to turn 40. My 30s really sucked.

I self-medicated myself into addiction. smh